You know that feeling? That feeling when you get everything you’ve ever dreamed of. Everything that you long for, for so long. It has been month, yet I still find myself speechless every time I think about the blessing I’ve received. A blessing in a form of a human; a partner; a lifetime dream.

I never knew I could find the comfort of a mother’s love in some stranger that wasn’t even related to me. I’ve never expected to find someone that could accept me for everything that I am. Someone that has seen my flaws and overlook them. Someone that I could be comfortable enough with five layers of clothing or a mere thread.

I used to be that cynical girl. The girl who was skeptical of everyone’s actions, of their motives. Then he came and made me believe. Believe in him, believe in love, believe in genuine feelings. Everything was new for me and I won’t lie, there were days I wanted to give up. And here’s another new experience, I’ve never wanted to be with anyone so much that I’m willing to fight my inner cynical self to death. Being by myself is something I’ve been comfortable with for more than a decade. I’m even comfortable living miles away from my family. Now the thought of being separated from him for a couple of days tortures me. There’s nothing I want more than to be able to fall asleep next to him, wake up to his face and go home to his warm embrace after a long day of work.

This is new.
This is real.
You're my first.